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NMASuPaStAr
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Name: Jonathan
Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 1/11/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: video games,
running,
sports,
eating ice cream,
drumming,
writing,
theater musicals,
drawing,
swimming,
filming with poy and tim,
and cooking
Expertise: Snare,
singing,
trap set,
and the thing I do best,
eat icecream!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media
Message: message me
Member Since:
5/28/2003
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| hey jonathan..haha i DID your xanga. yay. haha its pretty :D
- erin | | |
| Last night I had a long talk to god bc I didn't want to start off the year feeling like this, and I ask what happened, and why, and how and all the questions possible. I missed the feeling of him being around and protecting me or just being there. Then I geuss you know I got kinda mixed up in all this and, I started to cry ( haven't done it in a while) , and my prayer ended, so I went into bed and I asked where were you when I felt alone? where were you when I just sat there by myself and no one would even speak to me? and when my friends ditched me at 6:45 in the morning? Then it came....
It was faint at first but began to glow so quickly, it was the feeling of warmth, of faith, I could feel god so much again. Then a vision came to me, and I was seeing myself at ci, seeing that he was there holding me when I was alone, keeping me warm when I was cold, sitting next to me when I sat alone, it was the weirdest thing but it touched me. I said god i'm sorry, all this time you were with me and I bawled a little, and I said sorry like, must of been a thousand times until I eventually went off to sleep. I don't feel fully restored yet but it sure is a way to start off 04 fo'sho (with hope).
-nmasupastar
p.s. thanx to all the people that tried to help me through this, you know who you are. | | |
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What do you see?
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| Ci was aite this year, but most of my friends were either sick or didn't go.
And no one wanted to be the ghost this year.....
As for spiritually for some reason I couldn't feel the spirit even when I really tried. So I geuss I left feeling a little empty rather than rekindling the fire. I hope next year will be different though. I don't know how it happened, and I geuss I'm kinda scared because my faith was everything I had, it made me feel like I could endure anything.
-nmasupastar | | |
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